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Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see
All of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms
You're only sleeping
Hope fades
Into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time
Don't say
We have come now to the end
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again
I haven't posted something for such a long time...well today i went out with melissa, v, sam and nikki. my dad drove me to west coast park because we were supposed to meet at the McDonalds there. My dad parked the car one carpark away from the Macs, so he decided to walk with me there. I didn't bring a bottle, and it was scorching hot. So i tried looking for a 7 eleven. But there wasn't any, not even a kiosk. so we walked into Macs and bought a large Coke. my dad whined for fries, but i told him no, because he needed to lose weight.we waited for half an hour, then mel called me and said, "jess, where are you?""i'm at macs. where are you?""im in macs too! i can't see you anywhere.""oh, i can't see you either. are you sure you're in west coast park?""west coast park?? im in east coast park!! are you pulling another prank on me?""err...no i'm serious.""oh my god. do you need a lift?""no my dad is here."i put down the phone, and the first thing my dad said to me was, "you owe me fries.""alright", i said."a lot of fries."as we hurried back to the car, he said, "aren't you glad that i walked with you?"and then, "at least there's a 7 eleven there."it was like some kind of crazy tour around singapore. it took us half an hour to reach east coast park. amazingly, i wasn't the latest.i decided to try my luck with inline skating. it was my first time, and when i tried to skate down the ramp, i lost my balance, grabbed melissa's elbow for help, fell, and dragged her down with me. i landed on top of her in the midst of the crowd, while she screamed at me as i tried to get up. i don't blame her, really.it took us half an hour to skate one kilometre to the Carls Junior. there was a ramp leading up to it. mel skated up it easily. i stood at the bottom and shouted, "are you crazy? how am i supposed to skate up this? i can't even skate on flat land!" she rolled down and said, "i'll pull you."so she held my arm while i tried my best to skate up, but with every push forward, i rolled back down the slope. i looked extremely retarded."forget it," i said. so i knelt down and crawled up the ramp on all fours instead. Melissa laughed. she wasn't the only one. a bunch of guys stood laughing at me too, but i didn't care. at least i made it up the ramp. after a quick bite, we skated back with sam,v and nikki on bicycles. they gave us a fifteen minute headstart. but this time, i only took fifteen minutes! hor. i'm sore. and i ache.
I was looking through my diary today when i found this particular entry which I had forgotten about, but it made a lot of sense to me. i dont know why im writing it here, but i just feel that maybe..it might motivate someone. cos it motivated me today.wells..it's from 3 years ago, when i was sec one. it was the day i missed the finals for the 400m in Nationals by 0.5s or something like that. e"Dear God, We got into the semi-finals for 4x100m, but i didn't get into the finals for 200m or 400m, my individual events. Why didn't i? Are you trying to teach me a lesson? To never be complacent during major competitions? Or are you doing it for my own good? So that I won't be tired for the rest of the week? So that I won't give up and give me a new motive to beat my opponents? I trained so hard for this day. And my dream is gone. Gone from my mind within a second, compared to the months of terrible training and pain. I'd suffered for this very day, and I didn't get in. Maybe you're trying to make me understand how it feels to fail. It's horrible, so very demoralizing and depressing, to know that all your effort has gone to waste.Then I thank you, Lord, because I have one more experience in my heart and my soul. I've learnt a new lesson today. So, never look back and come back even stronger than before! Keep being consistent; give your all for everything! And if you fail, then it's a new experience and another lesson learned.One of my dreams were taken away from me - I won't let another do the same. Keep your faith, never give up! Chase after those who are faster and better than you. Don't aim to be as good as them...aim to BEAT them!"09/07/2008hahaha i dont know...im not being proud or anything. i just thought it sounded really motivating. if i think it gets awkward being up there on my blog i'll delete this. Anyway, I came up with this quote in the bath before my WALAA race last year. Amazing how my brain can think up stuff as random as this."I may not win, but I know I won't lose."
holyyy shit! ahhh tomorrow is 400m and and all the st nick's sprinters are running in the first heat - that's belinda, song ching, ying ting and jaime - except me!! im running with trisha ahhh! and im in a sucky lane. ahhh!! lane 6 man! sheeshkebab! ahahaha im so scared i cant stop laughing. and and next week i'm in the 1st heat with windy and im in lane 7!! the suckiest lane that anyone could hope for. ahh ahh ahh im freaking out ahhh!!anyway i have a dog. i mean, a real dog. not a stuffed toy dog. his name is Tricks. we saved his life, cos if the Franciscan priests couldn't find anyone who wanted him by thursday, they would have put him down on friday. so when i came back from training and walked to the back garden i found two pairs of eyes staring at me and a tail wagging so ferociously i feared it might drop off. he's a fat beagle. and i mean super fat. but he's a nice dog, obedient but likes to come into the house. mmhmm. ahh im still living in self-denial. a dog! i can't believe it! hmm on wednesday we probably had the most fun training in our 4 years in track. well it rained really heavily, and when it stopped we had to do 20, 40, 60m twice in the mud. and there were puddles of water everywhere. so when we finished everything windy commented on how joy's butt was so muddy, and it was most probably because she had such short legs. joy took it quite well, but then she said, "oh really? well watch this!" and jumped into a puddle splattering me and windy with mud. i didnt really see the link between short legs and jumping in a puddle to prove otherwise, but it did take us by surprise. then windy jumped into the puddle followed by me. i dont know, why i just needed to jump in. instead of the water splattering to the side of my legs it went up in between my legs, which was quite fail so i was drenched.so! the three of us came up with an evil plan. we gathered round a big puddle of water and 'oohed' and 'ahhed' until the sec 2s came running up filled with curiosity. "what what!" they cried. "oh my god it's damn cool!" "so disgusting!" siew lei and michelle bent over and tried to squint at the imaginary 'cool' and 'disgusting' thing in the puddle of water, and eventually the other juniors were bending over it too. "i dont see anything." they said. i pointed a finger and said "it's over there!" and that was when joy did a running jump into the puddle. mr chng was standing nearby and immediately walked off the field to ensure he was out of range.we did it again to ying ting, and we kicked water everywhere. mr chng took out his phone to snap a shot while ms lim came out of her office to see what the commotion was all about and walked up to us just in time to see the captain of the track team fall for a trick and get splattered with mud, and she couldn't stop laughing.
just came back from sec one orientation camp and man it was tiring. hahaha some classes were super high and some weren't. i totally missed the campfire cos i had meet the parents duty. so from 545 to 730 i had to stand at the singha lion place and tell parents to go to the field or the hall or where to find the toilet. then we had to move chairs from the 4th level to the classes that we were in charge of. for example, i'm in charge of 1Hope, and the holding classroom is on the 1st floor. so since the only classrooms in the upper sec block which weren't being used were on the top floor, i had to carry chairs down 4 flights of stairs and then carry them back up again. but at least i had friends to help me..like the unlikely appearance of kirstie and jia wen who suddenly turned up at 8 and asked if i needed help.so after that we waited for the sec ones to finish and the EXCO and PSLs went a major bench cleaning spree cos we had to use newspapers to wipe the bottom of the benches which were used on during the campfire cos they were dirty. then i had to stone for 45min waiting for the sec ones to make their 'tang yuan' thingthing. then another half an hour waiting to give ms lim her bowl of tang yuan. but then she didn't want it so yingting and kim ann had to finish it off. ahahah!!well then had to bathe. used the men's toilet on the second floor. it's so nice and big! the whole thing is just one cubicle and there are 2 sinks for one person! amazing! anyway washed my hair in the sink and then used an ice cream tub to scoop up water and pour it all over myself. it was cold. then went back to the canteen and i was dead tired. so i just joined 2 benches together and rolled into my sleeping bag and slept at 1230. but then the lights were on and the other PSLs were talking and laughing and doing work so i couldnt sleep. hmph! not that i blame them. they need some fun. but the noise didn't stop or go down one bit for 5 hours straight. ahahha so i couldnt really sleep but oh well! ahhh yesterday was dear joy's birthdayyy~~ happy birthday joy! you're 16! hope you're feeling better now.i also hope you took my advice and watched an NC16 movie the first thing you got back, and i also hope you didn't mug. (: you're a really wacky fwend and so i wish you to remain wacky as always. yar. we'll be behind you. the sprinters and barney too.
ooh wow it's christmas eve already! isn't it fast? ahaha wow. well yesterday i had this choir party where i was mary in the christmas play. i had to carry a baby doll which everyone looked like the thing from the omen. they called it the demon baby from hell. pretty sad cos it's meant to be jesus. well the play was alright. except the three wise men forgot their lines...melchior, balthasar and caspar. Caspar:"...and the Angel Gabriel said - "*pause*Caspar turns to the Angel: "what DID you say?"anyway after that we had this catered buffet with turkey and cakes and mutton and sausages and fruit punch and milo. then we had this jam session (not the preserve, the one where you sing songs at the top of your voice with other people in front of a mic) which lasted from 8-11. about 10 people remained from the 20 that joined in to sing random pop songs like "hey, soul sister" but we still managed to get a complaint from one of the neighbours living in the condo saying that we were too loud. but we continued to sing anyway. then we sat down and drank orange juice after keeping all the wires and a guy called Barry who's 20 something years, got high after drinking the orange juice from the brand Berri, which he claimed he owned. then he had a sudden inspiration to sell orange juice called Barry's OJ which will be freshly squeezed from the Philippines. the funny thing is he's a platoon commander in the army. imagine what his officers would say if they saw him like this.well i gotta go for mass now. ahahahaha yay christmas is in 4 hours!
