The Eighty-third Post of a Lifetime

You have no idea what it's like.
You may all think it's okay when you're comforting us, but it's NOT. It's NOT when you're in our position. We let the team down. We let the people who ran their fastest in the heats to get into the semis down. We let the school down. We let ST NICKS down. We are the ones who are responsible for you to watch the other school's 4*100m finals and St Nicks WON'T be running!It's my fault! It's all my fault! I stumbled when I tried to give the baton to Janna. I slowed the whole team down. I have no idea why Janna is crying, but I think I should be the one to blame. I am the one who made the team get disqualified. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT FEELS. Oh gosh oh damn it. I really really wish I could not have run today. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry I let all of you down. St Nick's won't be running full glory on the 23rd because of me. Oh my gosh I'm so so so sorry. I'm letting all of you go through this humiliation because of me me me me me me. I'm the one to blame I'm sorry. Just sorry.