ARGH!
I have a lot of emotions rolling around me, but I just don't know what they are. I don't know if they're anger, fear, depression...jealousy? I have no idea. But I know that I'm not feeling satisfied right now. And that all I care about is....nothing but studies. I want to improve. But I have no idea why, right now, I just don't really give a damn for sports. That's very unlike me I know. But....that's to put it simply. Or maybe, it's because I'm just so darn tired. I don't feel like running next week. I just can't believe it's next WEEK. Okay, it's not even a week now. It's 6 days for me. I can't believe it's been a year since 2008 Nats. It's going to happen all over again. And I don't really like it.
Plus, I have no idea why I don't like track anymore! Urgh what's wrong with me?? This is the thing I don't really like about myself. I'm really really indecisive. And I have PMS like all day. Like in the morning I'm happy-go-lucky. In the afternoon I'm normal. And in the evening, silent, frowning, and withdrawn.
Like what the hell, is this puberty!?
Ahh! Even my use of vocab has changed! I'm speaking like an....ah lian? Noooo....what should I do? I'm tired, I have a speech tomorrow, the science report is due tomorrow, and we haven't even done the experiment yet. We're so dead meat.
What a screwed up life I've got.
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