You just had to say that and ruin my entire day. Whenever I have to work with you, you laugh with your friends and don't laugh with me. You leave me out. I can leave you and sit at my desk, look out the window and you won't even notice I left the group. You won't notice. Because I'm too insignificant to you. I can't talk, all I can do is look at you ad you look back at me and I turn my head away in anger, frustration, sadness, trying to control my fury, my tears, my emotions. I go away to a quiet place and sit down and try to think, but you show up and I can't think anymore. My mind gets distracted. It wanders to places where I don't want it to stray to. But I'm too tired to care anymore. Care anymore about anything, everything. I've lost my appetite, I forget things, my memory is failing, I don't even feel like laughing anymore. I feel anti-social and I want to have some quiet time alone by myself. I don't want to go for the Sprinters Barbeque anymore. I won't be able to talk. I'll just stone and do nothing and watch the others have fun. I don't want to go.
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