look how they shine for you

you knowww..i wonder if the world is just our imagination.
like, what if computers were all part of a dream that you made up. what if we're all actually asleep and the life we live is just a dream we're thinking of. like, everything we go through is just made up. like how do you know the shape of a rectangle is the same as in other's eyes? you know what i mean? people might see the world differently. like totally different. if you know what i mean? i don't know how to explain. i tried writing it down but it seemed even more confusing. i think this is philosophy! why do we have souls? how do souls stay in our body? it's pretty unbelievable that we rely so much on something we can't even see....or feel. without a soul your body will just be an empty shell. no laughter, no tears, no voice, no movement. just empty. it's sad, when you come to think of it. when someone dies and their soul goes to the pearly gates (if there even IS a pearly gate) no matter how hard you try to shake them awake they'll just lie there unresponsive. and it's sad. don't you find it sad? i wonder why god made different personalities. maybe to make the world more interesting? cos if everyone acted the same way there won't be much fun or variety will there? i wonder why god made some people more inclined to do evil. the world will be such a pretty place without a Hitler or a whatever-his-name-is in Cambodia. maybe to show us that people really can persevere through hardships and that sooner or later good will triumph over evil? humm...smart.
without obstacles there won't be any improvement anyway. right? without things to overcome and hurdles to cross we'll just stay put and we won't move an inch or progress in life at all. sighh...i wonder how big the galaxy is. if there's a beginning, there should be an end. or like god, it's omnipotent. hummm i want to know the answers. these will be the questions i'll ask god first when i go to heaven! if i even manage to get to heaven. aahhaah

for you i'd bleed myself dry...