Carren was very mean today. )): she made me trip 5 times in a row going to chinese lesson and twice coming coming back then she pulled away my chair when i tried to sit down before maths lesson but she sorta held my upper armm so i didn't really fall on the ground with a huge BUMP which should have been expected with this type of prank then she stole my wallet and phone from my pinafore when i left it on the table, and she made me so terribly worried then she gave me this melted chocolate that was given to her by Rachel. so meann!! and she called me a-a lazy little piggy!!! i'm so insulted! hahaha but i know she just did it all for fun. it was pretty hilarious actually, even to me who was the victim of it all. she was laughing all during maths because she was reminiscing about the way i squealed when i fell down as she pulled my chair back. (:
anyway, during science lesson, i ate a peanut from the experiment for the testing of food samples. you know, the bio one with the starch and fats and protein and...something else. yeahh. the peanut was horrible. it was soft and sour and rough, and the skin stuck to your tongue. then my group mixed the solutions together cos we had already finished and we were bored. very fun indeed.
then after school i went to lucinda's house for lunch. hahaha and that annabel just had to drop the puny crystal she was trying to put back into her ring along the pavement next to a row of house, which was next to a drain, and with gazillions of cracks everywhere. so we spent 20 minutes combing the area like retards trying to look for a crystal 2mm in diameter. we gave up after a while and had magi mee for lunch with sausages and egg! yumyum! and i had 1/4 of a sandwhich after that. then played monkey in the middle. i was losing, sadly.
fratleck after that. horrible, even though i was the one taking the timing. i like died at the end. hahah i was wheezing non-stop and my legs felt so stiff and the lactic acic was starting to come out, and my arms refused to move and i sorta dragged myself to the finishing line. horrible horrible horrible. well at least it's over now, and ms lim commended the sprinters for their excellent work during training when ms natasha wasn't around. good work sprinters! keep up the good work yeah?

i'm sick and tired of life, i'm stressed to the limit that i don't really care about things anymore. i'm really scared. i don't know why. but i really wish that something might come sooner or later and just end my life. i know i sound stupid, but it'll be so much better that way. i'll be totally free from the struggles and the depression and the anxiety, the nervousness, the emotional pain, physical agony. the relationship problems, the ungrateful people who treat you, oh, so nicely when you're doing something for them and then treat you like a retard and a fake when you turn around. it just hurts so much sometimes. the pressure from sports and studies are just begininning to weigh down on me. i really really really feel like giving up. dammit.

The 143rd Post

It seems that my father was filmed with the Amazing Race contestants today. Although he didn't know and just happened to walk into the scene. You know, the passersby? The funny thing is that every time my dad goes somewhere, he always ends up sitting next to some celebrity like Jackie Chan or or...what's his name? The guy who plays Frodo in The Lord of the Rings. I totally forgot his name. But yeahh, Jackie Chan at the next table and all, but my dad's so blur he needs people to tell him who they are first before he recognizes them. Funny man. I can't wait for training tomorrow, even though I know that it's going to be 150 striding 5 times.

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i believe people too easily.
like....someone
i shld stop doing that
you too
RAWR RAWR FIGHT THE POWAH!
boohooboohooboohooboohooboohooboohooboohoo

oh noooooooo!!!!!!!!! i am very pissed with the hooligan beside me! !!!!!!!!!!!
i wanna kill her so badly! hack her guts out and sun- dry them and make curry outta them.
she got me into deep shit!!!!!!!!! erm.. ahha! hahahahah!! hey stop that ******!!!!! make frenchh fries out of her!!!!! oh yar1 i have annabel's pandan cake and if u rmb, we whisked the cream up to make it and thats wat im gonna do to her.
i feel like crying................DX
OHNOZ I AM SCREWEDDEDDED!!!!!!!!!!!

The 142nd Post

You think I'm a faker? A liar? Ha, like real I am! You spout nonsense about me, total crap. What have I ever done to you!? You tell others how I express myself irritating, annoying. Well, can't I do what I want!? I tell you this, even if you scream or shout at me I will never, ever change the way I am for the likes of you. This has gone too far I tell you!! Too far! Isn't there another reason you can say to hate me? A reason which sounds more reasonable than this stupid insult against me when my back is turned!? You think I'm faking. Since when have you thought of me like that!?? I couldn't believe you were actually this kind of person. I thought you were nice, and friendly and everything. But in the end you're not. I was always there for you when you needed me. And when I need you now, holy cow what do you do to me!? You give me a stab in the back! And a painful one too. Oh, and if you haven't noticed on the top of my blog, it says " I dislike backstabbers." Correction. I HATE backstabbers. So there. And since you're one, and worse than that, I hate you. I'll give you ONE more chance though, to change. I dont want you going on like this cos sooner or later you'll land yourself into trouble thinking like that. Mark my words.
Said by Oscar Wilde, "Always forgive your enemies - nothing annoys them so much." And that's what I'll do. I shall bloody well annoy you. In a nice way.

The 141st Post

I went to the doctor today, cos yesterday I went and the doctor wasn't open...so I went back. And plus, my fever went up again - 38.9 degrees when I reached the clinic. The doc said that it seemed very likely that I have H1N1. Cool. But he says that if it is, then most cases aren't that bad so it's alright. But if it isn't, then it's just a bad flu. Cool. I didn't sleep at all last night either, cos I think I felt really uncomfortable. Hahaa...):

The 140th Post

Heyy cool I have fever! 37.6 degrees man! Hahaha! I don't think i'm going to school tomorrow. I have like, 4 symptoms of H1N1!! Hahaha! But most probably it isn't. Yayyy no need to go to school tomorrow~

The 139th Post

Spick, Sphunk, Sponk, Splunk, Dunk, and lots of teddybears.
I am your father, and you have failed me for the last time. You must be destroyed, and all evidence of your existence must be erased and all connections terminated.
=.= going crazy

The 137th Post

I feel so heartbroken. Everything that I have done has gone to waste...I feel hurt. Just so...well...hurt. --.-- Hmph. Don't know if I'm being used. Don't know if you take me for granted. Hmph. Annoying. I really don't understand you anymore. ):

I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

The 136th post

This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart
as compass

This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything

My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom
gone with my sins

Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore

Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

Oh, how I wish...

The 135th Post

Owww my back...
I guess that's what I'll get after sitting on the floor all hunched up and bent nearly double trying to find pieces of Lego in a plastic container to try and finish building the robot I half finished. Haha. I built a robot todayy. A bit random, but my dad was a bit sad because he bought it for my brothers when they were about 4 to play with, (it cost nearly a $1000!!) and they didn't use it. So when I was watchind How Do They Do It on Discovery today my dad hopefully asked me if I wanted to use it. So I said sure! and he happily went off to the storeroom to get the Lego thingy all covered in dust. But it was still fun!! But I didn't have enough pieces, so I couldn't finish it, and I spent about 15min peering into the container and using my finger to rummage aorund the pile of plastics. And now my back hurts like crazy owww. I guess it's because I sat in the hunched up position for nearly 3 hours. =/
And I guess I've gotten over it already, if you know what I mean.

The 135th Post

You just had to say that and ruin my entire day. Whenever I have to work with you, you laugh with your friends and don't laugh with me. You leave me out. I can leave you and sit at my desk, look out the window and you won't even notice I left the group. You won't notice. Because I'm too insignificant to you. I can't talk, all I can do is look at you ad you look back at me and I turn my head away in anger, frustration, sadness, trying to control my fury, my tears, my emotions. I go away to a quiet place and sit down and try to think, but you show up and I can't think anymore. My mind gets distracted. It wanders to places where I don't want it to stray to. But I'm too tired to care anymore. Care anymore about anything, everything. I've lost my appetite, I forget things, my memory is failing, I don't even feel like laughing anymore. I feel anti-social and I want to have some quiet time alone by myself. I don't want to go for the Sprinters Barbeque anymore. I won't be able to talk. I'll just stone and do nothing and watch the others have fun. I don't want to go.