Carren was very mean today. )): she made me trip 5 times in a row going to chinese lesson and twice coming coming back then she pulled away my chair when i tried to sit down before maths lesson but she sorta held my upper armm so i didn't really fall on the ground with a huge BUMP which should have been expected with this type of prank then she stole my wallet and phone from my pinafore when i left it on the table, and she made me so terribly worried then she gave me this melted chocolate that was given to her by Rachel. so meann!! and she called me a-a lazy little piggy!!! i'm so insulted! hahaha but i know she just did it all for fun. it was pretty hilarious actually, even to me who was the victim of it all. she was laughing all during maths because she was reminiscing about the way i squealed when i fell down as she pulled my chair back. (:
anyway, during science lesson, i ate a peanut from the experiment for the testing of food samples. you know, the bio one with the starch and fats and protein and...something else. yeahh. the peanut was horrible. it was soft and sour and rough, and the skin stuck to your tongue. then my group mixed the solutions together cos we had already finished and we were bored. very fun indeed.
then after school i went to lucinda's house for lunch. hahaha and that annabel just had to drop the puny crystal she was trying to put back into her ring along the pavement next to a row of house, which was next to a drain, and with gazillions of cracks everywhere. so we spent 20 minutes combing the area like retards trying to look for a crystal 2mm in diameter. we gave up after a while and had magi mee for lunch with sausages and egg! yumyum! and i had 1/4 of a sandwhich after that. then played monkey in the middle. i was losing, sadly.
fratleck after that. horrible, even though i was the one taking the timing. i like died at the end. hahah i was wheezing non-stop and my legs felt so stiff and the lactic acic was starting to come out, and my arms refused to move and i sorta dragged myself to the finishing line. horrible horrible horrible. well at least it's over now, and ms lim commended the sprinters for their excellent work during training when ms natasha wasn't around. good work sprinters! keep up the good work yeah?

i'm sick and tired of life, i'm stressed to the limit that i don't really care about things anymore. i'm really scared. i don't know why. but i really wish that something might come sooner or later and just end my life. i know i sound stupid, but it'll be so much better that way. i'll be totally free from the struggles and the depression and the anxiety, the nervousness, the emotional pain, physical agony. the relationship problems, the ungrateful people who treat you, oh, so nicely when you're doing something for them and then treat you like a retard and a fake when you turn around. it just hurts so much sometimes. the pressure from sports and studies are just begininning to weigh down on me. i really really really feel like giving up. dammit.