i just realised how i find life so boring. i don't know whyy. i really want to know what death is like! hahaha! maybe i'm thinking too much, but i really wonder if there really IS such thing as God. we don't really have any proof that he is out there right? who created him anyway? so if God created the universe and all living beings, who created God? and if God DID create the universe, i wanna ask him tonnes of questions. like, how long does the universe stretch until? it never ends, but if it DOES end, what will we find at the end of it? another universe?? it's just so annoying cos i really want to know!! and is there really a heaven? what if there isn't any heaven? what if we just get reborn again? what if we get reborn to another universe or become a puny organism with a lifespan of 5 days? what will we bedome if we don' have eternal life?? ad if there really IS a heaven, then how in the world are we supposed to live forever and ever and ever? i mean it'll be so boring, cos maybe after a 100 years or so we would have already explored the entire city or country or continent or planet or galaxy or universe of heaven. then what will we do after that? sit down at the banquet table and sip milo forever? that will be so absolutely boring.
plus, how do i know if i'm jessica? jessica is just a name. and without a name, i wouldn't be anybody, but i will still be somebody right? so who am i? is there really such a thing as earth? what if my entire life story until now has been a dream or a hallucination? what if i am not me?? i mean, is the world real?? am I real?? if there isn't any God, then who made us?? it's so crazy! i'm even beginning to have doubts about myself.